I finally got everything typed up that was in the archives, aka my notebook. SO! everything from now on is new. New perspective, new people, new adventures, new life. Same love, same heart ache but he will never get on to read them, so I have nothing to worry about. Lol, he doesn't have to know how pathetically I'm still in love with him and his brilliant plan didn't work. Doesn't it suck to be on the other side? I know it does for me. If I had known i was putting him through this kind of pain all those times i broke up with him...gah, i would never have done that. At least he knew he'd get to see me again at the next school year, heaven knows when I'll see him again. Question to the universe, is this a test of my love or a wake up call? I have no clue. its frustrating. BUT i guess, the fact that I cant move on kind of implies its a test....haha, that makes no sense but w/e.